Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Monday, December 29, 2014
Exploring unFamiliar Territory
Last night I dreamt of you
we were in a movie theatre
you sat behind me
and leaned forward to touch my shoulder
I reached up to touch your hand
in the dark it was okay
but when the lights came on
I turned and you were gone
Today I ate M&Ms and I was ashamed
the pup came galumphing into the room
his ears were inside out and I was amused
in just a bit I will cross the Salisbury Viaduct
and I am afraid
not afraid, apprehensive
a fear of heights grew up with me
but I am leaving it behind
Before we met you told me
…high up
gasping for
balance
pushing on
we must
keep moving
or we fall.
Good advice that I will follow
on this bridge and in my heart
None of you will walk beside me
not one will hold my hand
but each of you are mixed into my soul
and I am not alone.
Sunday, December 28, 2014
Friday, December 26, 2014
What do I want from you?
only that
you touch my face
hold my hand
and stroke my hair
ask me if my
day went well
and tell me bits
of yours
walk beside
me in the woods
lay beside
me in the field
wrap your
arms around me
look deep
into my eyes
kiss me with
caring tenderness
and then let
nature take its course.
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Always, there were Uncles
Uncle Mick
with Aunt Diane
who once
found me weeping in a cubby
and
explained that, in this family, we show love
by picking
on one until she cries
Uncle Jerry
with Aunt Debbie
who did the
dumbest things
but did not
despair
instead, she
shared the tales for laughter’s sake
Uncle Tom,
the one and only
my most
constant family and friend
not a
Christmas in my life without him
the caring
son until the very end.
There wasn’t
always a father
but one year
he came through
and gave me
$10 to buy presents
for
brothers, mother, uncles, cousins, grandmothers, and himself.
For Uncle
Tom,
an envelope
of tiny tacks and a plastic shark on wheels
he played
with it for hours
and made me
laugh until I could not breathe.
Later, there
were still three uncles
but two of
them were my brothers, Uncle Roger and Uncle Ed
the last
Christmas I remember us all together
the most remarkable
things were said
Grammy said
we need not save the wrapping paper
to be used
another time
and we
really are not Irish
Pap Pap had
told a lie
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Squirrel Nests
Once the leaves have fallen, you may notice a large ball of
leaves about thirty feet above the ground and close to the trunk of a
tree. This is most likely a drey, a squirrel’s
nest. The drey starts as a ball of small
branches harvested while the leaves are still green. Because the tree has not begun the process of
losing its leaves for the winter, they remain attached throughout the winter. This outer layer serves both as camouflage and
waterproofing. The inner chamber of the
drey is lined with items such as moss, lichens, grass, feathers, and fur for
warmth and comfort. The single entrance
will generally be concealed and face the trunk.
Squirrels typically build two or more dreys and will abandon
one if it is discovered by predators or infested with parasites such as lice or
fleas. Squirrels breed twice a year,
generally in June and January. Many
squirrels will choose to den in a tree cavity rather than a leaf drey during
the winter and kittens (or pups, depending on who you ask) born in cavities are
about 60% more likely to survive. If not
breeding two or more squirrels may share a drey for warmth. This collection of squirrels, by the way, is
called a scurry.
Against Our Will
Love is a blessing
as well as a curse
moving and changing
against our will.
We cannot choose
when we fall in love
any more than we can
choose with whom
as much as it hurts
it cannot be killed
and this is how I know that
I am in love with you.
Won’t you, just once
even if it’s a lie
tell me that
you are in love with me?
Monday, December 22, 2014
Christmas Sorrow
There’s nothing in my heart today
it's as empty as my nest
no joyful anticipation
or packages to wrap
without my child what is the point
it’s just another day
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Solstice Solitude
Saturday, December 20, 2014
Friday, December 19, 2014
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
Poet Dissection
Perusal of poems is a perilous thing
for each means what it means and it doesn’t.
The poet speaks in clear language one can’t
understand
he says what he means but you read
something else
even when he explains he may as well speak
Portugese.
When a poet writes of true love is she
speaking of you,
a handsome troll under a bridge in a
plastic shoe box,
a healer whose touch changes lives but
destroys innocent bikes,
a sensual soul with the strongest resolve
whom she’s only met once in her life,
the man that she married or the one that
she lost,
or a dog that died way too young?
Conversing with poets is a dangerous
hobby
meant only for those who are strong.
A poet will bear his soul
she will give her heart away
they will live, laugh, and cry with all of their might.
Knowing all this, do you think you could handle
the full intensity of my true love?
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Unchanging
Just when I start
taking steps forward
seeking new focus
I find that I am again
not again, still
frozen in space, time, and love
with you
Friday, December 12, 2014
Oh, Possum
Photo borrowed from Bing |
Weird things amuse me and the
possum is one of them. Yes, technically,
it is the opossum, but you knew what I was talking about. The only marsupial native to the United
States, the Virginia opossum (Didelphis virginiana) varies in size more than
almost any other mammal in the world. A
male living in PA can weigh as much as 14 pounds, while a female in the South
American tropics may weigh only 11 ounces.
An opossum’s tail is prehensile,
allowing it to be used like a fifth paw to carry small objects (such as nesting
material) or grab a branch for balance, but they can’t hang upside down by tail
alone. They have fifty teeth (more than
any other North American mammal) and opposable thumbs on their hind feet that
have no claw.
Possums walk in an ipsilateral
manner (I love that word), meaning that they step with both left feet before
stepping with both right. Of course,
everyone knows that a possum “plays dead” when threatened. In reality, this appears to be an involuntary
near coma like response that can last up to four hours while the opossum lies
on its side, mouth and eyes open, tongue lolling, and emitting a green fluid
from its anus whose putrid odor tends to repel predators. The opossum is omnivorous and is one of the
very few animals that eat copperheads and rattlesnakes as they have an
unusually high tolerance for venom.
Mating season lasts from December
through June. Three litters may be
raised per year and up to fifty young may be born at one time. Most do not survive as there are only 13
nipples, arranged in a circle of 12 with one more in the center. The young are called joeys and they will
remain in their mother’s pouch for about 2-1/2 months before climbing out onto
her back. Perhaps the oddest thing about
opossums is their genitalia. The female
has two parallel vaginae and the male has a bifurcated penis.
Tom Waits has sung about them: “Road
kill has a season, just like anything, it’s possums in the autumn, and farm
cats in the spring.”
See, I told you I
like weird things.
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Monday, December 8, 2014
Whispers
you have touched my frozen heart
and melted into my soul
when I speak to you with silence
I can only hope you understand
Sunday, December 7, 2014
Friday, December 5, 2014
Say It
Say it in
song,
say it in
dance,
say it by
touch,
say it any way
that you can:
die
Welt ist schön,
le
monde est beau,
мир
прекрасен,
the
world is beautiful!
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Invitation
Just when you invite me in
I’m thinking of running away.
Let’s stay outside just a little bit longer
I know that it’s cold but I’ll keep you warm.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
A Bucket of Snakes
Photo from Bing |
I don’t
really have a “bucket list” but I’ve been thinking a lot lately of the things I’d
like to do now that I am regaining some mobility. Some of the things are quite private and have
been told to only one certain gentleman; others are quite public and very few
of you are unaware of them, such as
visiting the Galapagos Islands with my daughter when I’m 50 or earning the
Versatile Companion Dog title with at
least one of my dogs. Then, there are
the ones that are just plain weird. The
one that is most on my mind today is one I’d long forgotten: I want to see a
snake hibernaculum.
A
hibernaculum is, in the most general sense, a place where an animal takes refuge
in an unfavorable season. This could be anything
between the typical winter den where a bear hibernates and a pocket of dried
mud where a toad waits out the dry season.
Strictly
speaking, only mammals hibernate. A few birds
go into torpor; insects and other arthropods go through diapause; and reptiles brumate. But, for the purpose of this musing, I’m
going to use the term hibernate.
In
spring and summer, snakes tend to stay close to water, where prey is abundant
but, in autumn, they begin to move into woodlands and rocky outcrops to find a
suitable hibernaculum. Most snakes
return to the same spot year after year and may gather in great numbers – both of
individuals and of species. Snakes may
travel many miles to reach their hibernacula and new members find the location
by following the trail of others.
So, why
would I want to see a hibernaculum? Since
I am enthralled when I witness the powerful and graceful movements of just one
snake, it only follows that I’d be fascinated to see a great writhing ball of
multiple species.
Snakes
are awesome. They smell with their
tongues, hear with their jaws, and sleep with their eyes open (of course they
do, they have no eyelids). Though I
cannot find a reliable reference, I was taught that snakes eat more rodents
than all other predators combined.
Whether that’s true or not, they are undoubtedly play an important role
in population control. With the
exception of the very few venomous species in our area (three in PA), I really
can’t think of a good reason to fear snakes.
Even the venomous ones won’t strike unless threatened.
Saturday, November 29, 2014
In Matters of Trust and Sacrifice
What do we do when we realize
that we cannot live inside of a dream?
Do we persist in the impossible knowledge of love
or reach out and touch what can be real?
Dare we accept what comfort is offered
in the tender embrace of a friend?
Friday, November 28, 2014
Turmoil
Oh, the delicious temptation to simply let go,
to lie in a snowbank, or experience the rain.
What pleasure to walk in a forest with perfect intent,
to know why you are there and with whom.
Dare we take such risks without meaningful reward?
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Hemlock Wisdom
Deep in the woods in the deepening snow
alone again but for dogs
safe in the arms of the hemlocks
weighted down with whispers of courage
“what you dream, one day, will be true”
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
One Less Worry - Somerset Magazine, Novemeber 2014 Issue
More than once, I have been accused of worrying too much
about my pets’ wellbeing but, in my defense, my pack has had some unusual
health conditions. Ethel (A herding dog heritage, To breed or not to
breed) was crippled not once, but twice; first, by the parasite Neospora caninum and, second, by severe
bilateral hip dysplasia that necessitated total hip replacement at an early age. Calley succumbed to a rare presentation of
lymphoma (A gift of love), Truman
passed this summer after battling an uncommon neurological condition and, at
the tender age of three months, Daisy (The
pitter patter of puppy feet) was diagnosed with ameloblastoma (cancer of
the enamel of her baby teeth).
On the ride home from VA that first day, I discovered a lump
on her jaw. At first, my vet and I
believed it to be a swelling related to teething. When the inflammation did not react to
antibiotics, we began to suspect a cyst.
After radiographs were read by a veterinary dentist, we were referred to
a surgeon diplomat and I found myself driving Miss Daisy to Pittsburgh for the
first of two surgeries. Thankfully, her
second biopsy shows that the princess is now cancer free.
Another odd thing about Daisy is that she grew long
hair. She comes from a long line of
champion Rottweilers and her parents were screened for all the genetic
conditions common to the breed. I
suppose this just goes to show that, no matter how carefully we plan, nature
can still surprise us. While we think
she is the most beautiful girl in the breed, she can never enter the show ring,
because a long coat is a disqualifying trait in conformation competition.
Daisy’s breeder is a kind and honorable woman. When she learned of our tribulations, she
gifted me a second pup. The young
prince’s name is Horatio and he has turned the Lindeman household into quite
the whirling dervish. Both Ethel and
Daisy (not to mention the man of the house) are quite smitten with him. They sleep, romp, and play together in almost
perfect harmony. Note the word: almost.
While both girls tolerate Horatio’s puppy teeth, shrill
bark, and almost perpetual motion, Daisy refuses to share food (or anything she
perceives as edible) with the new addition.
In the first seven days of their cohabitation, she has engulfed hooves,
rawhides, a stolen pork chop (bone included) and, two days ago, a number of metal
rings designed to attach tags to collars.
Of course, I worried about her digestion and her comfort as
she completed the process. I worried
about internal bleeding, pancreatitis, and her mental health. There are two things, however, that I didn’t
worry about: her care and how I would pay for it. We are blessed to have an incredible
veterinary team and I am grateful that I had the foresight to purchase
veterinary pet insurance.
While there are limitations to any policy (for instance,
preexisting or preventable genetic conditions like Daisy’s cancer or Ethel’s
hip dysplasia), I am truly impressed with the benefits we receive. The costs of Calley’s chemotherapy and
supportive therapies were nearly 100% reimbursed. Ethel’s chronic conditions are covered. Daisy’s treatment for enteritis (a.k.a.
garbage gut) will be paid in full after our deductible. Horatio’s wellness rider allows for
semiannual checkups, vaccines, parasite preventatives, wellness screenings,
dental cleanings, and even toenail trims.
There are numerous reputable companies to choose from and levels of
coverage to fit almost any budget. I
encourage each pet owner to consider a policy of your own so that you, too,
have one less thing to worry about.
(Rebecca is the president and executive director of The Ethel Fund
Inc., a nonprofit organization dedicated to providing assistance to family pets
in times of catastrophic veterinary need.
To learn more, please visit www.ethelfund.org or www.facebook.com/The
EthelFund. You may contact Rebecca at
rslindeman@ethelfund.org.)
Metamorphic Redux
Monday, November 24, 2014
Turkey Trot or The Extent of My Education
One thing I can say for sure is that I really know my
s**t. Scat, that is (get your mind out
of the gutter). Scat, of course, is
just another of the many words used for bowel movements. Now, if you want to get really technical,
there are some very specific terms to be applied. For instance, technically, only humans
produce feces, though the term fecal is used across many species with the same
understanding.
Birds
and bats produce guano. Guano is white because of uric acid. Wildlife waste is generally qualified as
scat. Insects produce frass. I spent one glorious spring working as a
frassologist, collecting, weighing, and measuring the little packages that fell
from the trees in our survey plots in order to identify the insects that were
being eaten by the birds in our study.
Can you believe I left that job to become a park naturalist?
If an
animal eats its own waste, this is termed being coprophagic. When rabbits and guinea pigs do it, it is an
efficient way to process cellulose. When
dogs do it, it’s just gross.
When I
studied veterinary technology, I learned to grade number two but, oddly, it was
on a scale from one to five. A one is
totally liquid (hmmm…) and a five is completely solid.
By the
shape, placement, and content, you can generally tell what species left
it. For instance, foxes tend to leave
theirs on logs but I don’t know why. The
picture above is from a turkey. A
male. That’s easy to determine by the “J”
shape and remembered by many of us as being eliminated by jakes. I could explain why, but I doubt anyone but
me and a handful of turkey biologists really care.
Fossilized
dung is a coprolite. Paleofeces are
fossilized people poop. And, now,
writing about this is getting really old…
Simply Complicated (poem)
what torment to have a heart
so capable of love
a curse to hold such passions in
to protect the souls not strong enough
to bear the full intensity of me
Saturday, November 22, 2014
Thirsting for Blues (poem)
Friday, November 21, 2014
Tell Me (poem)
I know that I'm smart,
I know that I'm strong,
I know that I'm loved by my friends,
but I wish that, just once in awhile,
a man would tell me
I'm beautiful
Thursday, November 20, 2014
Vaccilate (poem)
tempestuous winds in the night
heart wrenching thoughts of what’s best for you
blown away by your voice in my ear
I just can’t believe that you love me
any more than I can believe that you don’t
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