This Is Me

like a fishhook in my brainstem

pulling upward into skull
muscle drawn along the line
arms that refuse to bend

insomnia, hypersomnolence

dreamless sleep and waking dreams
crisp and vivid color patterns
electric synapse voltage shocks

obsessive drive and laziness

fear of failure and success
growing dying love
proud embarrassment

sit beside me silent

offer brilliant conversation
accept me as I am
and help me change