A Cruel Blessing

you’re not the man you used to be

and I, for one, am glad
gone is the spiteful arrogance

how old are you now?

I’m 48
how old am I?
you’re 70
70? I don’t feel 70

you’re not the man you used to be

no longer do you flaunt to me
the choice you’ll always make

how old are you now?

I’m 48
how old am I?
you’re 70
70? I don’t feel 70

you’re not the man you used to be

somehow, you’re better now
cruel memories are fading

do you still live in Somerset

I do.  what’s my name?
Henrietta!
that’s not my name
but it’s a good name
okay, I’ll be Henrietta

you’re not the man you used to be

you smile, point out the trees
offer your coat, because it’s cold

how old are you now?

I’m 48
how old am I?
you’re 70
70? I don’t feel 70

you’re not the man you used to be

I’ve never seen you scared
but at least you are not lost

where are we going?

up to the high bridge
oh, that’s another mile
that's right, Dad

what’s my name?

Henrietta!
that’s not my name
but it’s a good name
okay, I’ll be Henrietta

you’re not the man you used to be
and I, for one, am glad
and I, for one, am sad

 

 

A Year in Review

 

 

withering id

emergent sacrifice

adoration undefined

intimate distance

abject ecstasy

 

Depression

Today, I just don’t think I care

perhaps, tomorrow, it will change

or maybe it’s too late

and I won’t care forever